Thoughts about life, training, crap and stuff

So I spent 3 hours in the ER last week due to chest pain and shortness of breath.  I knew it was probably nothing more than anxiety/stress but because of my pain tolerance (it's VERY high, and this is not a bragging macho thing, I just often don't know when I am really hurt) and my wife hammering on me about it, I decided to go in.  They ran a ton of tests and everything came back normal.  My family doc told me it was in fact, probably anxiety.  Now up front, I have nothing to be anxious about, nor am I stressed about anything.  Life is good actually.  But sitting there in the ER for 3 hours gave me a lot of time to think about my own mortality.  Something I think about more often now that I'm 36.  Sure, that's not old but I'm not spring chicken anymore either.  So I was in a fairly good funk for a few days thinking about it.  I imagine everyone who lives long enough thinks about this at some point.  Leaving your loved ones behind, missing out on the life that goes on without you, etc.  It's going to happen obviously.  Sometimes it seems more difficult to accept than other times.

This story isn't getting a lot of news coverage, and I think it's obvious that we all know why.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1379691/Transgender-girl-beaten-seizure-McDonalds-attack-victim-hate-crime.html?ito=feeds-newsxml

The victim is white and the attackers are black.  The two black girls stomp the victim out until a seizure sets in.  The rest of the "men" working in the restaurant do nothing to stop this attack, and I'm pretty sure if these two bitches got the transgender victim into the parking lot, they would have killed her/him whatever.

The only thing that saved the victim was an old lady who intervened who was also threatened to get beaten if she didn't back off.

There are so many thoughts I have about this story but I will leave it.....for now.

The diet is going good but I do find that I allow myself more cheats than I should and I need to get that back in line.  I'm already between 3800 and 4200 per day depending, and there is no need for extra IMO.  So I have to be cognitive of that to avoid extra fat gain.

I'm pretty sure this will be the last time I ever "bulk" or eat to get bigger.  I really have just been teetering on the edge of where I need to be for so long that it's more or less a requirement right now.  Being 240 under 10% bodyfat has been my goal for as long as I can remember.  So I'm just going to see where this takes me.  I will not exceed 15% bodyfat however, no matter what.  Dieting to get fat off sucks too much for that.

I'm pretty sure I have a heel spur.  I still run on it when it doesn't bother me, but the next day or later that same day it will hurt like the dickens.  I hate this more than anything because sprinting and hills are such a staple in my training.  But I've been doing more bag work and stuff to compensate for the loss of the sprints.

Movies -

Hanna - Saw this yesterday.  Awesome movie.  It's like Bourne identity meets x-men if you will.  Definitely work going to the theater for.

Wasn't one of the reasons that Obama got elected was because of the price of gas at the time?  People feared that McCain was just another oil/money guy and it would stay at $4 a gallon?  Wellllllll here we are a few years later and uh, gas is $4 a gallon.  We're sitting on crude and heating oil highs over the past two and a half years, and the scare of higher gas prices is one of the reasons swing voters voted for Obama.  Instead of going to Brazil to get oil why aren't more jobs being created at home to help this shit economy?  Why aren't we going after our own native oil instead?  It's fucked up.

Things you lose your man card for - Just an update

Carrying your wife/GF's purse around while she shops.  You can hold it while you stand in place as she shows you the sexy underpants she will wear for you later.  Otherwise, you lose the man card.  This is whupped at a level that requires you to kill a medium sized animal with your hands and teeth to get your man card back.

Is there anything better than Sunday afternoon delight for 2-3 hours?  I don't think there is.  I really don't.

I may take a road trip to see Mount Rushmore this summer.  I haven't been travelling in a while, and I think the girls would really like such a trip.  It's about a 12 hour drive but that's ok, as road trips are fun too if you make em fun.  Which means stopping to see shit and have a good time.  My dad drove past everything.  Pissed me off to no end.

Let me also say, there is a difference in travelling and vacation.  Travelling is when you go somewhere to see and do shit.  Vacationing is for resting and relaxing.  I hate it when you go on VACATION and some asshole wants to plan a bunch of shit to do.  This is a huge pet peeve of mine.  My wife hates this too, so we never go anywhere with other couples because without FAIL the female of that couple always wants to run around and do shit the whole fucking time.  Why?  The whole point of getting away like that, is to recharge.  To show back up at work and feel refreshed.  I don't go to Vegas or Cali to travel.  I go there to kick back, relax, and sleep a lot then do some easy style partying at night.  But hell no, there is always one that wants to go to the Grand Canyon then walk the strip all day then go see 50 shows, etc.  Fuck that.  I'm going to the pool, passing out for a few hours, eating lunch, then repeating until it's dinner time.  This will happen pretty much the whole time I am in Vegas or Cali.  But for a road trip, I plan on doing stuff and walking and seeing the sights.  The whole difference is the mindset of what you are out there to do.

Guys that are super skinny that have been lifting a long time shouldn't give eating advice to guys who are trying to get big.  And fat guys shouldn't give dieting advice.  These guys always recommend the most retarded shit.  Do internal training on low carb?  Are you fucking nuts?  Sure, I want to go into full catabolic mode and feel like shit while I do my cardio.  Real easy here......

If you're going to do intervals as your main source for fat loss conditioning do not eat low carb.  Worry about calories and eat moderate carbs.  And do your intervals in the evening after you have had some food in you.

If you are going to do low carb, do steady state shit and if possible in the morning.  30-45.

Really, a great option is to end 2-3 of your lifting sessions with 8-10 minutes of intervals of some kind, then do steady state on the off days.  This is a really solid overall plan and something I have been implementing during this bulk.  I think it will work great during fat loss stages as well because I intentionally eat more on lifting days.  Should work like a charm.

Hope everyone had a good weekend.

Mondays suck.